100 years

i just spent about 100 years tinkering with my blog.  i also ended up deleting the post i had previously written about my lack of decision making skills.  had you been able to read that post, you would understand why i just spent forever playing with the colors and the layout. BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE A DECISION.  because i am constantly second guessing myself.  which is why i try never to make a decision.

my m.o. is usually to put off decision making til the point is moot.  it works far better than you would imagine:  someone else makes a decision for me, and i can't bitch; i realize the question wasn't important to begin with; i no longer have a choice so there is no decision to be made; i miss the opportunity altogether.  whether the outcome is positive or negative, the decision--so to speak--is made, and i no longer have to consider my options.  which is positive to me.

i have read recently that people who spend lots of time researching or trying out before making a decision aren't any happier with their decision than those who JUST DO IT! in fact, quite often they are less happy because the second guessing (uh-huh) drives them nuts.  i have also read lately that the more choices we have, the less happy we are with our decision. (which pretty much goes hand in hand with the first idea)

example: i went to the store and saw that hair dye was on sale.  i always want red hair, so i decided to buy some red hair dye.  then i noticed that there were dyes that were cheaper than the brand on sale.  BUT, the one on sale was someone's favorite--some important celebrity type someone i haven't heard of.  (not to mention the gazillion other brands looking at me temptingly.)  i could go auburn or mahogany or brilliant burgandy or merlot or rich red or copper.  i sat in the floor surrounded by boxes of hair dye for nearly 20 minutes. 

guess what?  the store will be closing in 15 minutes.  i hopped up, grabbed a couple of frozen pizzas and some ice cream, and hightailed it to check out.  no dyes.  my hair is still brown, and i feel fine.